Deerlie's main blogrecently found and read through Hamartia and it was only after I was done that I realized you were the same person who wrote my fav PJO/Criminal Minds crossover !
you write crossovers like no one else <3
Thank you <3 crossovers were definitely /my thing/ for a long time. I may well get back to them but they were above all the things that got me really into fandom a decade ago and I have had so much fun writing them over the years :)
I'm tipsy but it really is kinda fun to have minor heart issues because everyone gets so scared at heart issues but I have a really common minor birth defect and a barely symptomatic AV block. Like guys I am fine and I am vibing I prommy sometimes i just feel fundamentally weird
taking a tolerance break from sudoku because it's desensitizing me to numbers
I hate when I remember something by an ungooglrable moniker. Sudden urge to read the "mustard poem". I dont remember anything googleable about the mustard poem. Just that it's the mustard poem and I want to read it.
I feel like it's generally not a good thing for my general mental wellbeing that every time I see or read something cool or fun online I have to pause and go "is this real?" and search for ai artefacts before I can enjoy it, and even then part of me is aware that I could have just missed something and ai is only getting better at tricking me, so then I don't let myself enjoy it anyway. Like I should not have to question reality like that, I should get to be grounded and normal about it and not anxious that I'm being tricked by a machine into believing things that aren't true and that don't even bring anybody any perceivable material gain. Y'know?
it bothers me that you often don't really hear about people having a "favorite album" the way they might have a favorite movie or favorite video game
fuck it. reblog this and tell me in the tags what your favorite album is
I love when I know something only by people on tumblr being obsessed with it. I'm sure my understanding of Project Hail Mary is very accurate to the source material.
Is this a safe space to admit that writing Ilya just feels like writing my good buddy Ilya Rozanov with a little side serving of "who amongst us didn't spend their formative years being a danger to themselves?" but sometimes writing Shane feels like getting naked on the internet
We need more women characters who are Male Protagonists. You know. Slightly haggard. She's splashing cold water on her face and gripping the edge of the sink staring in the mirror for a minute. She's coping badly with her deadwife
It's always a good sign when you end up deleting all 1.5k words of a chapter you have written so far, right?
late summer / early fall thoughts
Occasionally i think about a Hollanov X Files AU I'll probably never get around to writing and I can never decide which one of them is more Mulder and which is more Scully...
for sale: Baby Shoes Stylish Infant Boy Girl Unisex First Walker Shoes Toddler Walking Crib Shoes Lightweight Non-Slip Sneakers For 6 9 12 18 24 Months Baby Shoes New With Tags New In Box Excellent Condition Never Worn
Every piece of fanfiction I write is just a really convoluted character study honestly
Writing fanfic. Obviously it's going super well.
One would think after waking up in a dream like twice a month for years I'd be used to it. I'm not. There are things I remember that I'm maybe 65% happened in dreams after I'd already woken up once. Sometimes dream me spends all their money after they wake up and then real me has to panic check their bank account to make sure that wasn't real and just yesterday. My relationship to time in the morning is non-existent. I do not trust that the things in front of me are real or the things in my memory are fake. They need to give me a brain that does not do this. Or, failing that, smash my skull with multifarious hammers.
it's summer which means i am constantly asking myself questions such as "who is on my hockey team" and "is that a good idea"
Does anyone know what to do about the temperature and also the prices
Ultimately I do think David Hollander owns his own bowling ball
Have we ever discussed Hayden’s number??? Because why does he wear 35 of all things? I know there have been actual real life forwards who have worn the number but it's absolutely a goalie number. Why does Hayden Pike wear a goalie number? Every time I see it referenced in fics I get distracted by it lol.
Anyone got any headcanons about it? It's just weird to me, I wanna know why he picked it (or why whoever chose it for him for HR picked it)
I love em-dashes so much I love leaving visible seams where two thoughts have been put together I love obvious scars in sentences I had to tear apart to shove a little bit of extra sentence in the middle
things that always make me happy: serial commenters. there are three types
1) reading a longfic chapter by chapter, leaving an increasingly emotional comment on every chapter, descends into keysmashes near the end: outstanding
2) read one fic by accident, clicked the author name, now working steadily through the backlog and commenting on everything, I wake up to an AO3 inbox full of enthusiasm: precious beyond words
3) the longterm serial commenter whose comment begins with I don’t even know this fandom but because they have followed me from somewhere else: stunning. humbling. magical.
these are all *chef’s kiss* and I want to add one more:
4) left a comment a while ago, comes back and leaves another comment on the same fic, telling you that they’re coming back to reread the fic: angels. blessings. lifesavers.
Watching the Victoire play the Frost and I am so in love with the Victoire colours and so annoyed that they do not ship pwhl merch to the UK please i just want a sweater (and also annoyed that nobody can score in this game)
Objectively so funny to me to witness the Zukka renaissance (2026CE) in my Ao3 kudos emails
Pls. do not re-post/reupload or use outside of tumblr without my permission.
Ottawa Centaurs vs Montreal Metros
aka Ilya Rozanov's Husband Duties
Luca at the back biting a Metros head
I am writing it so poorly, but at least it is getting written, without the use of AI
i am not watching the leaked movie personally but i am VERY excited to giggle about zukka during the official release because do yall remember when all we had was this
So the fact that I can't run Spotify on my laptop while I'm typing in a Google Doc without it crashing is probably a sign I need a new laptop, right?
When writing Heated Rivalry fic I try to keep my hockey scores fairly believable but, like, with the way NHL scores have been looking recently maybe I should just stop. Fuck it, maybe they do win 8-1. Maybe this is a 14 point game. Sure, Shane can have a hat trick and two assists. As a treat. And it's all still grounded in reality.
When do you predict the next chapter of Now and Then to come out? I’m hoping you’re not abandoning it, it’s a really well written fic.
Honestly I'm not sure, but you've put it into my mind now so possibly some time in the next week or so. It's definitely not abandoned. I may not have had the right motivation to sit down and write it recently, but I like that series too much to just leave it :)
Started writing heated rivalry fic and now my kudos emails look like this and i am so normal and casual about that
I wrote Heated Rivalry fic about Ilya getting outed post-tuna melt and pre-All stars, it's almost 30k words, finished, and people seem to like it
https://archiveofourown.org/works/77745891/chapters/203656581
Also there's a 9k Cliff Marlow POV companion piece
I wrote Heated Rivalry fic about Ilya getting outed post-tuna melt and pre-All stars, it's almost 30k words, finished, and people seem to like it
https://archiveofourown.org/works/77745891/chapters/203656581
i think shane and ilya are both terrible smilers. real 5-year-old-at-his-first-picture-day energy
When Yuna has her “no son(in law) of mine will have inferior brand deals and management” takeover shortly after she learns about Shane and Ilya, how long do you think it takes her to figure out his money situation with his family?
I’m imagining her/maybe Shane playfully ribbing him about how he has no real financial manger or decent investments and what do you MEAN you just let a paycheck like that sit in your account while buying luxury cars every five minutes no wonder your net worth is shockingly low for your value, etc etc. and he’s not even offended he’s surprised and pleased that his new family is so invested in him and also enjoys watching where Shane gets some of his crazy. Like Ilya Mommy Issues Rozanov is “yes please ma’am optimize my finances and worry about my wellbeing harder” while he shovels whatever David made for dinner in his mouth.
But then at some point while she’s (lovingly) harping on his financial irresponsibility he just kind of quietly mentions that actually so much of his paycheck was going back home to his family when he was younger that he needed to blow shit on cars or whatever pretty quick if he didn’t want it to disappear. And she realizes that yeah he’s a little dummy who spent a concerning amount of money on VIP sections last year and thinks bank account interest is investing but he was also a child supporting his entire family in a foreign country with no one bothering to look out for his best interest or explain planning for a future.
David gets treated to impassioned rants every night about how “David I’m not convinced anyone even read that boy his contract in Russian”.
She starts managing him as well, obviously, and she’s kind of disturbed by how easily he just signs whatever she puts in front of him and doesn’t bother asking questions before agreeing to hand over all his management to her. He just seems thrilled she got him a Lamborghini partnership and an invite to fashion week.
The only time he puts up a fuss is when he realizes she’s not planning to take any significant cut of his money because “you’re family sweetheart” and he looks like he got smacked in the head with a shovel and has to go outside on the porch with Shane for a suspiciously long period of time.
Just to make sure it’s not suspicious that Yuna Hollander is now managing Ilya Rozanov she takes on a few more clients too. And if she specializes in managing rookies with no support network or active language barriers then that’s just a coincidence.
[guy whose bedtime is approaching fast] I need to write one billion words right now. and draw everything that has ever existed.
Insane writing techniques that help me every time
Hope this helps !!!
season 2 of atla is so good because you’ll watch an episode and it’ll be like -
A plot: aang learns to stand his ground in order to begin earth bending
B plot: zuko screams at god to strike him down with lightning
C plot: sokka is stuck in a hole
Officially have a Heated Rivalry watch party (ft. spiced rum) planned with the same friends I used to get drunk and do dramatic readings of weird smut fics (including foley) with. Occasionally I love the passage of time.
It went well they all loved it even though one if them did not appreciate me saying "Ilya's good with kids and Shane's ovulating" at the pool in episode five, and at least one is planning on reading the books
duuude is that a losing dog? *gets out my wallet*
affirmations for bus drivers: i am sexy and necessary for society to function 💞 ten minutes is not that late 💞 i can fit through that gap 💞 the passengers don’t need to sit down before i blast away from the bus stop 💞 i can take this turn as fast as i want 💞 twenty minutes is not that late 💞 everyone on this bus desires me carnally 💞 thirty minutes is not that late 💞
It lowkey kind of sucks when a band’s most popular songs are really really good. Like trust me I WANT to be (more) pretentious about The Mountain Goats I WANT to be too smart to enjoy the two songs everyone knows but unfortunately for me This Year and No Children simply fuck too severely. I can’t even pretend they’re not some of the best songs ever written.
fav ship dynamic: ragebaiter x ragebaiter
Officially have a Heated Rivalry watch party (ft. spiced rum) planned with the same friends I used to get drunk and do dramatic readings of weird smut fics (including foley) with. Occasionally I love the passage of time.
abandon shame. theres more interesting emotions to be felt
as a writer you will have a specific deck of vocab words you like using a lot and when you read other peoples' work you will see a very clear spread of different vocab words on their end. this is why you need to read, to collect other writers' words like it's a card game
at the cottage picking up rocks
tshirt that says "i do not consent to being filmed" on the front and "i am in witness protection and if you film me and post it online you could be directly responsible for my death" on the back
when someone post a picture of me and my shirt online i then deploy my 87 alt accounts posing as various members of the mob to send the uploader messages demanding to know the whereabouts of the person in the image and making it implicitly clear that i plan to harm them
imagine you are charles rowland, possessed by the raw divine drive to be a knight in shining armor at all and any cost, only for your fair maiden to be a guy who clawed his way out of hell with only his teeth and bare hands. and that guy is like, oh thank god, a knight!
yes, percy rose through the ranks of new rome disturbingly fast. no, jason did not do the same at camp half blood. yes, percy's rise to leadership at both camps took about two weeks and was completely unplanned. no, the same cannot be said for jason. his rise was carefully planned and took over a decade. they're both children of the big three, but where percy thrums with raw power, jason is a sword honed by zeus and hera. where percy is a survivor, jason is a weapon. where percy is a cycle breaker, jason can't get out. jason's fatal flaw was temptation to deliberate because he never managed to make his own choices. he was every classic definition of a hero rolled into one, and he never questioned it because his happiness came after the responsibility. jason was never going to ascend as fast as percy because jason was raised on hard work and discipline while percy, an abuse survivor and child of poverty, knew when to fight dirty. where jason was a transplant, percy was an invasive species. jason was always going to die because he was never more than a tool for the gods to throw away when he outlived his usefulness, or when he started to question his place. if someone as locked down as jason can question the system, anyone can. now that luke has put thoughts of overthrow in everyone's heads, zeus has to be very careful because while jason was expendable as his weapon, percy was unexpected in every way. zeus has no plan for him. when percy dies, he will become a martyr, so he can't die, except now everyone knows that percy doesn't want to be a god either. jason had to die, and now percy has to live.
planning my fic in a normal way. 1) what incredibly indulgent scene do I want to write next? 2) what connective tissue do I have to set up between indulgent scenes to get us there?
reblog to send the fish on a trip around tumblr
"we need water you can eat. we need water composed primarily of minerals. we need water that calcifies you where you stand. water should not be water. water should be limescale." - the south of england
new year new mountain goats
Whenever I think shit is bad here in America I see some headline from the UK like "Want To Shave Some Money Off Your £43,025 Heating Bill This Winter? Piss On Your Hands If They Get Cold" by some guy named Lord Sir Arthur Albert Pomphrey who holds 5 government positions and lives in a house worth $37,000,000,000,000,000
having a favourite animal you're associated with rules because people will send you beast related things and it'll make your day everytime
(no beers in) I lack a lot of the traits people typically define as human and on occasion it haunts me
"its so sad that everyone who knew how to do film lighting or cinematography died in 2017" 🚨WRONG🚨 They are working on canadian government funded yaoi
the ability to befriend animals is one of only six trillion things that make life worth living
i love fiction so much can we never be real again
If you see this you’re legally obligated to reblog and tag with the book you’re currently reading
Father John Yogurt was defrocked from the clergy today for being asexual, following a papal ruling that "vows of chastity don't count without temptation." The Pope later commented "You gotta have that dog in you"
Your 2025 Wrapped!
im an outfit repeater, movie rewatcher, and music addict, i feel unstoppable
I have such a dumb idea for a Zukka AU and I've had it for months because it's both stupid and high effort, but also I've been thinking about it for months so I think at this point I have to write it, don't I?
Does anyone know the British TV show Race Across the World? Because I really wanna shove them together as strangers who kinda don't like each other who then have to spend weeks backpacking together across the world for TV and maybe an amount of money that really is not that much. It's very dumb but also I know I'd have so much fun writing and researching it
So... ummm, about that....
https://archiveofourown.org/works/74655891/chapters/194968141
I love my friends <3
i like to pretend i already died and asked god to send me back to earth so i can swim in lakes again and see mountains and get my heart broken and love my friends and cry so hard in the bathroom and go grocery shopping 1,000 more times. and that i promised i would never forget the miracle of being here
— our town, thornton wilder
My local cinema puts on old movies on Monday nights and, let me tell you, the WHIPLASH I felt when I left Hitchcock's The Birds (1963) and was immediately confronted with Phan hardlaunch was genuinely comparable to the time I actually fucked up my neck in a car crash
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the rapture for gay ppl happening rn
you know, normal levels of chronic pain
dnp should win an award for most emotionally complex podcast announcement ever
pov: you're a tumblr user reading a post
the author's barely disguised longing to be a real person
the author's barely disguised longing to not be a real person
I've been thinking about Now and Then (my ongoing Percy Jackson x Criminal Minds crossover fic), as I often do and I'm still undecided about where to go next. Please, blindly give me input tumblr.
Basically I have 2 cases planned for the BAU to attend, one in Texas and one in Alaska. I planned on doing the Texas case first but I'm itching to write the Alaska one--doing that would require some restructuring + push back some cameos I'm excited about though.
You know it's October when you, a person who loves the outdoors, have to start taking Vitamin D supplements
Has anyone considered using a bottle opener on the rim of a glass? I've outlined some of the benefits below:
Let me know when you've had time to review my proposal.
i keep spending money. i should be killed
my house is pretty awesome ihave an elephant in the room and a skeleton in my closet
One of the worst things you can do is to make a purchase that isn't very good. There's very little way to recover from something like that
Guy at the ticket gate at a train station in London saw my friend was going back to our town and told her he has heard that it's haunted. I have not heard that it's haunted and must conclude that they are not telling us on purpose. They need us vulnerable to ghosts. For purposes.
I kinda love when I take a picture of something beautiful and it looks like shit because it humbles me and reminds me to stay off my phone
You need to touch saltwater
my dearest husband has left for war, I pray for his safe return.
i feel like nobody has NOTPs anymore. like if you hate a ship now it has to be for some deep moral reason and you have to justify it to everyone what happened to just not liking stuff that isnt inherently bad but just because you personally think it sucks
Reblog this with a ship u don't like for no reason
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